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| Wednesday, March 24, 2010 |
| the heartbroken me |
Few Days ago I had this talk with him..I told him that now that his parents are back, I feel more so of being pushed further and further away ...from my daughter.
I honestly feel that she is loving me less I could feel it from the way she looks at me, and slowly transforming to a mother that could not be seperated to a care taker role....a similar way of putting it, just like a typical indo maid in any household in Malaysia.
I get blamed for things that don't even matter, just because I dont make a big deal out of it or not fighting back I am being push further and further and my back is against the wall now. Oh I see this all the time, happened to my friend, happened to my aunty could easily happen to everybody without they themselves realizing it. A typical male dominant family.
I realised that this is happening to me and still take no action. What can I do? talk? that will only results in denial with whole bunch of arguements and eventually will shut me up again. Start fighting back? that will create miserable in our lives and conclusion of "you ve changed"
And he was wondering why there was no emotion connection from me. The situation is even worse now, everything I do bugs the hell out of him... is that one of the side effects on trying to quit smoking? I kept telling myself it is because I really hope that is it and I can truly understand that..is not that because he truly hates me, he's just snappy.
All I can do is keep my distance. Im heartbroken. |
posted by SuLee @ 1:31 PM  |
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I hope things will get better, dear. As the saying goes: "This, too, shall pass."
*BIG HUGS*
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hey... sue ann here.. by reading ur blog, i should sense how upset u are. let me share something that i learnt from our Soka Family Day yesterday. A leader said, "no hardship will last forever"... therefore this "heartpain" situation will soon pass. dont give up hope. i do hope u still continue your chanting. encourage ur husband to chant as well. when such unhappy situation happened in a family, it's called a family karma. i will chant for ur family's absolute happiness. :) take care babe..
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aww, such beautiful pics. May God bless her :)
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I hope things will get better, dear. As the saying goes: "This, too, shall pass."
*BIG HUGS*