im drowning

I was just reading the famous blogger in Singapore - Xiaxue, 's blog. And she had all these pictures of her trip in langkawi posted up, and she made a comment about how they were paying her for all these luxury treatments!

man it was really something, wat did she really have to do to become all famous so all these sponsors will pay her so that she would mention them or put pictures up in her website?

is crazy isnt it? and that's her fulltime job. (well that part is abit pathetic)

I cant help but to wonder what kinda life would that be...you were just paid to go travel, try out nice food in nice restaurants, or anything fun really.... ahhh it is my fantasy now to have someone to pay me to do so...

ah well, or or! what about striking a lottery!? hahha clearly i am dreaming, honestly i ve been in my dream for the past month - everything seem unclear, blurry....

I seriously need to get back my life together, know why m i almost online for 24 /7?

i m in denial, im avoiding - i ve done that before , i ve been in this stage - the only difference this time is i know exactly whats happening....... I soaked myself in some addiction like play black jack or poker online to keep myself away from everything.


is this really the solution? of coz not.... I need to get my life really started again....

when I was 21.....

So much mix emotion in me right now. Rush, boredom, addiction etc..

Does these things come to any human being that has too much time in his/her hand?

I wish I was 21, old enough to do watever I want and still young for any responsibilities. The feeling of puppy love, friendship, party life, school etc

Dont you think?

Thailandlicious

Warning : this is a strictly makan trip....

alright I lied, we lived like kings and queens when we were there, got to live in one of the newest hotel in town, so everything is brand new!! so much better than the last one we stayed in, the carpet in the hallway smell like pee. yuck

well anyway i didnt take any pictures this whole trip coz my eyes were still recovering, and i knew i traveled with my sister, and i tell ya, she was snapping non stop!!

but of coz thanks to her great photography skill... we got these great pictures!

we had hot pot on cny eve.

My favorite restaurant

Thai Chicken feet salad - super spicy!
I was screaming and drank so much water! but yet too tasty.
and did you know hot peppers with soy sauce is called "pit lampa" in Thai?

main dish - best thai fish head noodles!
they deep fried the keuy teow with batter and cut them in to pizza slices, then top with the fish head and vege sauce. yummm~

Fresh seafood displayed on the street

mom took us to eat "kuey chap" i ve never tried them b4, is like chuu cheong fan but cut up in slices, the soup base is soo goood!

you eat with tray of sauce, they are either "salty, spicy, or sour"

We stopped by this restaurant by the street, they said thai fried rice is the best, but i made better fried rice than this, other dishes like deep fried pork feet were pretty good!

My brother is super happy when he gets food, so m i...i love him!

roast pork for sale on the market, they are special!

Nothing like a great cooling coconut juice on a hot weather like that.

we went for thai traditional massage everyday - for 240baht /2 hours, which is about 24RM or 8$! i felt bad for them so i tipped them alot!

Then all us girlie went for madicure and pedicure, please ignore those stinky male feet, they werent suppose to be in the picture

ahhhh great trip

My New Free Toy

Found a great tool for photo effects! been playing with it, yay i got a new toy.

A little preview, still at the beginner level....









Im a little obsessed with my wedding pictures, i have to look at them everyday! and oh my god how the sweet memory crawled right back to my mind, just makes me feel sad, i want that day to be 72 hours! it was so much fun....

my coma life

I ve been waking up 2 or 3 in the afternoon. Yesterday for some reason I couldnt go to sleep till 5am, I gave up and popped a sleeping pill and be gone.

woke up 1 afternoon, go to the kitchen and ate another one and gone till 6pm when darling came home.


I might as well be in a coma eh?

my jobless daily routine

Dont you just love your jobless days? I dunno about yours but mine was pretty much the same everyday. At this moment, i wish I have two kids to keep me busy...

woke up around 1 to 2 ish, star blankly into the computer screen, checked emails, facebook, blogs the usual stuff.

finally got my ass up and cleaned the coffee table and kitchen. then start digging into the freezer and brainstorm wats for dinner/ lunch.

Then defrost, chopping, washing, stir frying (a little tip : the killer for stir fry is nice white pepper! u know those from sarawak.)

Then i will enjoy the meal infront of TV watching those hk series I brought back. (which im almost out of them!)

Then I will get on the phone with darling hear him complain how bored his day is.......and I will tell him the same thing:

so am I!!!

Alright, I finally got these photos tagged from facebook, just thought I 'd share or load them up here so I could look back ten years from now.....

1.30pm at Best Western Hotel meeting up with the engineers.

Ring ceremony is strictly closed door and no camera, thus this is at the reception


group photo after the reception on the way to the bar
waiting for the bar to open, we were 15mins early!

at the bar.........long table..............

I regret we didnt take any dancing video at the club.......we all got shit faced!

the Iron Ring Ceremony

It was the Iron ceremony yesterday, because I still havent unpack, and my camera is drowned in one of my suitcase. Thus I dont have any picture. The ceremony is close door anyway, no camera and friends are allowed, only the recipients and presenters are allowed.

After an hour of boring ceremony, i felt so stuffy in the small room with 400 other sweaty enginners. We finally got our ring. it was nothing great, but it meant something... it meant years and years of hard work, and it carries our obligations as engineers. We had to read our oath holding a big iron chain on our right hand, i have to admit the whole ceremony is weird.

Anyway the highlight of the day is partying with bunch of engineers. they scattered around downtown, some at hugos, some at social club, we went to element, I danced my ass off before I decided to suddenly pass out. Darling brought me back to the store, which thank god only 10 mins walk. and he wasnt feeling good and we took a nap on the couch behind.

I woke up around 3 feeling better, and drove us and doggies home.

When I came to work this morning, I saw D's car is still there, they must ve still asleep in the hotel room, wonder if they got lucky? haha


anyway it was nice to see everybody again, but when i was at the club last night, I was looking down at the dance floor, although my mind was a little bit tipsy, but I saw a pool of ppls, mostly women danced their ass off, there is a corner of stuck-up asian chicks, swirling their body to get attention, but of coz they are not as wild as the white chicks, rocking their body and booty hard! and males were just around where I am checking them out, saw M dancing with one after another, change women as the song changes, and was told that P was making out with this woman wildly on the couch, they almost had sex on that couch!

I told darling I will really hate this kinda life, will you prefer it? and of coz he said No, mei sei koh mehh, haha but I do believe him.

Isnt it empty life like that? I mean i have friends going out every weekend just to get laid. everytime with different partner. i mean....

I guess from a man's point of view, as long as they get to please their little thing, it doesnt really matter. oh why? Im wrong? alright maybe not all men are like that, but I do know alot of them.

The pictures of that pool of single (who knows) ppls dancing on the dance floor under red and blue lights still appear clearly in my head. even though im so hang over right now and wish im home asleep , or drinking more :P but honestly I was one of them, and man i do not ever want to go back to that life! I love the feeling of secure, and settlement. I love my wedding ring, my husband, and my dogs, soon my children.

Saw a friend that I hvent been seeing for two years on the way to work today. She and her husband was carrying the baby trolley down the stairs, and she is so adorable! oh my god, I really wish I am pregnant now.....

But no, just finished school, I gotto at least work for a year before anything. Guess what!? I got a call for an interview, he's going to email me the details , is a small company - maybe just around 10 ppls? a friend worked there before, he didnt really like it but for some reason i know Im going to learn so much from a small structure company like that.

Wish me luck.... now i got my ring, i just need a job and followed by my cert in June.

Job Hunting Status

I must ve sent out 20 applications, and still havent hear anything from anybody...

This is getting really frustrating especially when my bank account has reach the point of negative! so much for my past year saving - i threw them all on the wedding.

well, gotto start from zero again,

I called my ex boss finding out their new hiring plan.

B: " do you know KE is hiring again?"
me : " yea i know, and i had applied to it but he had rejected me before..."
B: " well doesnt mean he's going to reject you forever..."
me : " true, well ok i ll give him a call to find out..."

so i hung up and call KE

KE:" KE speaking"
me: " hi is Nicole...bla bla bla...so I saw you have a new posting, do you think i still stand a chance?"
KE: " well.....I dont think so, coz it hasnt been that long since your last application and we are looking for someone with more experience"
me : " alright...just though I'd check"


.................ouch!......................

I m really hoping I could go back to Schneider Electric, its such a good company to work at. And Im waiting and checking everyday for the new postings like B said is going to be up.

Gosh....I so need a job and get my career started.

House is still a mess but in a good way, we ripped off all the carpet and putting on new laminate floor. It doesnt cost too much coz darling is doing it on his own, Im so proud of him! he actually did a very good job! the room is finished, and just needed the wall painted and installing the baseboards. But we can wait on that one since our new king size bed doesnt come till this thursday.

Living room is in the process of installing baseboard, hopefully we can set up the living tonight because is darling's bday tomorrow :) I am getting rid of the single seat armchair and the recliner, and instead of that im gonna throw a bean chairs to save some space. so the living area will be more spacious and Lex will have more room to move around.

What is my contribution? well nothing really, I just painted all the doors which was an easy job and i guess im painting the room's wall tonight.

what a big expense for us :

the floor
the paint
the bed
the bedsheet
the baseboard

gosh I lagi need a job !

Europe Expedition

That two weeks was overwhelming, well why m i complaining when i get to see the world!? but we were on the go everyday, different hotel every night and avg 5 hours on the coach, the only cities we get to spend more than a night are Rome, Paris and London.

We ve visited so many cities, countries - London, Brussels, Luxembourg, Switzerland, Venice, Nice, Monaco, Vatican city, Florence, Lichienstein, Assisi, Lyon, Piza and Paris.

I mean we were most amazed with Brussels, maybe because that was the first city we stopped in but after a while, all buildings look the same...and have we ever had enough of buildings now....

anyway, let the pictures do the talking.

Brussels, Belgium (Belgium Beer, Chocolate, Waffles, Fries)

Best banana chocolate belgium waffle!

Brussels Market Square

Paris, France (Eiffel, Louvre, Mona Lisa, Romance, Louis Vuitton!!)

The Louvre

Eiffel top - we saw a guy proposed to his gf , so romatic

Paris Disneyland, I was back to 8

Lake Lucern, Switzerland ( Swiss Knife, Watch, Army knife, coo coo clock)

Swiss Chesse Fondue with their home made garlic chili sauce, sooo goood!

Italy(Historic ancient towns, Roman Empire, Roman Catholic, Vatican city, Pizza, Pasta, Gucci, Prada)

Florence, the town of leather

Leaning tower of Piza

Monaco (Casino, Tax free country, most expensive land in the world, second smallest country in the world after Vatican City)

we were outside of Prince Monaco's resident and saw him driving in

looking down Nice, French Riveria

Venice (floating / sinking city, handmade glassware, gondola ride, romance, pigeons)

Venice on Valentine's day -it was unforgetable

The Vatican City ( Museum, Catholic, michalangelo, Basicilicas, churches, chapels)

The Vatican Museum, we were amazed how grand the Popes back then used to live.
Michaelangelo's ceiling painting was quite something

Colosseum, Rome - I think darling had most fun, he was always amazed with the roman empire

London, England

This was towards the end of our trip, we stayed a few nights with Kelly

My best buddies all reside in London - well kelly had recently moved to switzerland

A close one

as i mentioned the house was in a disaster, the first instinct we got is - we cant keep Lex anymore.

Thus I posted ads to sell him, surprisingly i got alot of responses, i mean his pictures just stole their hearts. and we found a good candidate for Lex. This couple own a town house with nice back yard, and two cats. She works from home so she could spend time taking care of Lex, and he wouldnt be left alone.

They met Lex yesterday and took him for a walk, fell in love with him and paid me 100$ deposit to take him. Made a vet appointment the next day for vet check, and if Lex passed the Vet check , they are going to take him. We cried last night, and this morning while I packed his bowl, toy, clothes and food.

When i picked Lex up from the shop and about to drive away, Darling stopped my car and asked " are you sure we want to sell him, i mean this is it, there is no turning back "

we talked and talked, we even flipped coin. I mean i filled up this questionaire about the dog's temperaments, he is an excellent dog! obedient, gentle and full of love.

Eventually darling drove to the vet with the deposit and returned to them, we decided to keep him, we cant be part with him anymore... she cried and still trying to talk us into selling Lex. I know they care for him, and Lex will be in good hands. but we just cant do it.

I mean, he's our giant baby..... I admit, Lex was my mistake, but we almost made another mistake we gonna regret for the rest of our life...

wedding pictures!!!

I finally get to upload them!