i duwanna be sick :(

today is the deadline of tuition fees and i owed uvic 3000$,thank god! my loan is debit in my account and i was able to pay it, but it didnt go so smoothly though,coz there were limit in my bank card and i had to run downtown pay it off at the bank , is all good now , no interest will be charged.

im sick!!! 5 days b4 i take off, having cough and flu, skipped class today ,yea is bad enough huh and guess what did i do? i had cheese burger and onion rings!!! geeeezz dunno what the hell was i thinking, guess i was too weak n tired so want something to cheer me up.... ahhhh excuse!

bought whole bunch of stuff today, bag for po, bracelet for er ku, uvic Ts for sean and ying, cologne for uncle HC...Tamara from MAC done a demo for me, it was gorgeous and im loving it so much, she used two shades(plumadge and steamy) to create this smokey look on my eyes and the gloss looks good too...too bad they were out of stock and i had her to call vancouver airport but unfortunately there were out too. guess i hv to call customer service in Ontario and yell at them so that they will courier them ovesr and weight the shipping fees off too! hehe...

feel like having crab tonight, im feeling so weak right now.....want a nap zzzzz

lazy sulee

Sigh... I ve been getting so lazy and unmotivated lately, everybody is still as hardworking as they were in the bridge program,get so much done during the weekend and i hate monday,ppls will be asking n saying what ve they done on the weekend...bla bla bla,geeez! dont they get worn out?! pissed me off!!

guess i ve been taking it too easy as we were told uvic is relax n easy, but theres no stress,therefore no high performance,or could it be im too excited about going back and got so distracted and carried away.

i personally think courses that we r taking right now is harder than the bridge, courses in bridge are easy,just too intense, the advantage being in uvic is we get to spend more time on each of them but apparently im not doing it.

ok here i promise myself to strike hard once im back...my heart is at home right now. geez how could i possibly concentrate? hehehe dont we women always hv something to blame on?

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AHHHHH FUCKING PDF IS DRIVING ME NUTS!!!!!!!!!!

发牢骚

再过七天，我将会乘搭最早的一班机，飘洋过海，踏上回家路途中。
现在的心情，是难以形容。
自从作决定那天起，我每天在倒数，在努力减肥，一天过一天。。。
体重倒是少了，但是还不满意，要再瘦5磅！！
还剩七天，能办到吗？
本来好好的，计划也很顺利。。
可是，这几天不知哪来这么多应酬，dinner 特别多。
搞乱我的策划，真该死！！
唉！看着办吧，反正回去也会大吃大喝，家乡的美味是无法抵抗的。

这几天喉咙也在痛，热气太重了。
可能身体在告诉我年纪大了吧！
要煲点二十四味，不然病倒就没趣了。

我要减肥！！我要瘦多5磅！！

go shawty, is ur birhtday!

It has been a week since i had my hair permed, it actually turned out nice ,thank god!! another week b4 going home... i really cant wait, mom still doesnt know that im coming back a day earlier and another surprise for her will be darling s coming with me. Im sure she s gonna be shocked+happy...

I just turned 24 today, yes is my birthday.still remember last year i cut 4 birthday cakes but kinda low profile this year, to me, just another day and im growing old,dont really like the feeling of being in mid 20s,b4 u know it ill be coming to my 30s...okok stop stop stop! dont talk crap, still long time to go...

the afternoon wasnt so great,kinda tired n grumpy, think im getting sick...
went home took a nap, guess what woke me up?!?! the start up tune from my new laptop!!!!darling went got me a birthday present while i was taking nap and is a hp dv1040!!! and he got a real good deal out of it...finally i got a laptop of my own after so many years...u kept ur promise darling , a promise that i dont remember,and u never dissapoint me.im sooo soo soo happy and i love you sooooooooo much!!

uncle steve took us out for dinner,wanted to go for some excellent lamb at moxies but it was too full, so we went for crabs at fountain.YES! big dinner and went work out right after n rushed for the movie "hide and seek" , is a great great movie, the way they market it as though is a horror spiritual kinda movie,tats why it attracted me. but actually not...check it out guys

happy birthday to me and hope the coming year is good.(at least not as bad as 2004,it was the worst year for me)

im almost at my mid 20s. OMG!!!!!!!! IM OFFICIALLY OLD!

another hair cut

is been..let me see, two months since i cut my hair...
i walked into the Salon with the intention of just cutting my hair( and i went to Tina this time,not that korean guy)
i request for slight curl bangs and ended up perming my hair + hightlight.
took me 2 hours, i ve never spent such a long time getting my hair done.

it turned out, way curly than i expected but this is usually the case when u first permed it, give it another month , it ll be all good.
I dunno if i like it, is different for sure, not as bored...but definately love the hightlight!

geez, hopefully by cny, both of my curls will be in shape...pray to god~~

saturday!

is freaking cool today,esp we hv to get our photo shoot by the beach, myohmy!im telling ya, the ocean breeze got my face frozen, i bet ya if i fall, my bones gonna go breaking coz is frozen too!!

im in an extremely good mood today coz i ve archieved my target for this week.
Jeff bought us breakfast today, how can u resist free breakfast? haha ,i only had half of it n stuff the other half to darling n Jeff.

Wanna go get my haircut today, why so early? coz incase, it turned out bad, i hv another 3 weeks for it to grow to normal,good strategy huh? yea i know ,after the last incident,man! i dunno anymore...

oh yea,besides that i hv to help Bryan to move...

still early, will see how it turns out...

didnt manage to get my haircut today coz when im down with bryan , it was snowing pretty hard, and is unsave to drive around,so i decided to head home, but b4 that,stopped by winners n bought pair of trouser. and its pink!!!! hehe
still snowing after my nap, got some vege soup n went swimming, crystal pool closed early today and we went to oak bay rec,did 50labs (not across the pool this time) i mean the real 50 labs!! ngek ngek !

perfect pink juicy roast beef~~finally!!

I had just made a perfect pink juicy roast beef 2 minutes ago and i just cant wait to get this down!!!
finally after so many imperfect ones...
mind me! im still in my strict diet program, and this roast beef will last till end of next week for darlingslunch-steak sandwich!but as i was slicing it,cant help but stole a few bites and it was mmmmmmmmm~~~mama mia!

Ive always tried to follow what the recipe told me,but never seems to work.
so here are few tips:(San,thought u might wanna know it.)
doesnt matter how u marinate that meat loaf,
-first,cut a 3lb meatloaf into two and tight them together in a farely strong thread
place it on the rack in the pre-heated oven at 450 degC.
-about 30mins, take it out,cut the thread,let both of them lay apart,on each of them,cut about 3quarters deep from the raw side,in the middle.
-so strictly speaking,ur sort of cutting the meatloaf into 4pieces and let it roast for another 20 to 25mins depends on how well done u love ur tenderloin.

and

tada!~bon appetite!

kam fei san fu ahh

sigh...kam fei really san fu loh, i did it b4 (successfully) but letting it grow more n more in the past two years!
esp i have to do it with daily activities involved like school n bla bla bla...unlike the last time, woke up 2 almost everyday n automatically skipped breakfast n lunch...
signed up for a month gym yesterday at crystal pool, did 50labs breast stroke, errr across the pool lah..didnt eat much yesterday,just two bowls of cabbage soups.
woke up today ok but half way in class, about 1100am , felt extremely weak n dizzy..had to skip 1130 s class n go for bites(soup n bread),heheh,felt much better but still weak.
gotto have some carbs later to burn some fats at the gym tonight....

hopefully all the hardwork would be paid for :),of coz it will, i ve done it b4

he's coming with me

Just yesterday,darling decided to come with me,ohhhh it was such a good night. we both were so happy when the decision is made and the best part is we r going on 5th,instead of 6th.
I ve always been flying alone and so is he...so this time we get to go through this long journey together which is really awesome!

3 more weeks to go,cant wait!

home! here i come....

today i ve officially decided to go home! (it was still unofficial last night although i was telling my family that i am) Dr So told me: just go if u need to, we ll talk about make up test when ur back..u have no idea how happy i felt when i heard that...was in extremely good mood today!!

also, today is my first day of strictly weight losing program! i wanna lose at least 8 to 9 lb within the next 4 weeks, and im gonna do it! wasnt going to hv dinner today but terry called coz there were some chicken wings specials at gorge pub,aiyaa ???but after 7 wings n a beer , i insisted to go gym although we were high high tei,managed an hour cardio,feeling good right now,will see how it goes...

home! here i come....

first day of school

is the first day at UVIC,once again ! im a 大学生!
4 classes today , out of 4,3 profs set their midterms on chinese new year week...
si beh sui!!anyway......will try to talk to the profs two weeks b4 me going back....
emergency mah!! cant do it now...heheheh
sooo damn sleepy in class today...stayed up late last night...damn!
first day of school always feel good...not much to do n our labs dont start till beginning of next month, in another word, my classes will be done 1230 everyday till next month!!
called khan but no one picks up the phone...trying to get a job...
gotto start flowing in some money into my account after boxing day....
money kept flowing out but never come in...cant go on like that!

should I or should I not?

is sunny n gorgeous today! make me wanna put on my bikini n head to the beach for sun bathing...
but hey! what do u know? is freezing out there , brrrr~~~
temperature has been dropping like hell since the past few days...and i ve entered this zone: the coldest month of the year! which i have never experience b4 and hav absolutely no idea wat to expect.

called mom last night, somehow she talked me into going back fro cny, and my ticket coming back will be paid for,by lou tao(my stepdad),isnt it sweet?ahhhh how i wish~~~ so im really considering it since i have my return ticket and duwan it to be wasted.....mmmm..let me see:
reasons to go back:
1.find my report
2.spend cny with family
3.could attend lou tao s wedding(yes! he has found another one!i know this sounds confusing , so dont even bother to ask!)
3.return ticket wont be wasted

reasons not to be back:
1.school n during then,midterms will be around the corner.
2.journey will be tiring,ill be worn out by the time im back in Victoria and gotto be ready for midterms.
3.wont hv much time preparing for exams

so overall, the reasons not to be back will be all because of school.

see! thats the problem when u hv return ticket in hand, i should ve let mom brought it home n got it refund. and now my plan is, tried to talk to the profs,make up things like : something had happened back home ,therefore i had to leave right away...hopefully they will be as nice as the instructors at camosun n excuse me for the midterms.hehehe me very bad horrrr.
but apparently from what i heard, profs at UVIC turned out not to be the case,damn n damn!

lets kept our fingers crossed !!!!

hey ppls! what do u think?lets start voting,whoever read this page gotto vote!
my destiny is up to all of u....
pls pray hard for me....i promise ill be good this year!!!!

施比受

whatever ...
我讲你是因为 I care
如果你是一个我毫不关心的人
我才懒得浪费口水呢。。。
至于你怎么承受，在于你自己啦

别看我死硬一把嘴
心特别软，也很脆懦
我的感情很丰富，像促销会似的。
这就容易受骗啊！呵！
有时恨自己怎么那样天真,常给自己关心的人出卖
没办法啦，只好骗自己
有时被利用时，尽量别着么想，自己也会舒服一点
当挨义气咯。。。。
有利用价值比没利用价值好，施比受更好..
对吗？

UVIC! here i come....

these two weeks i ve been chilled n relax....
another one of this day to go and ill be going back to school....sucks huh..
u have no idea! when i think of school now..is no longer like : meet frens,cute boys!!
but : weekends will be snatched away, no life, depress.....

sigh...i chose my own path, who asked me to be in engineering? (and it has to be elec), during the diploma program, 3 years just went by *snap* like that....was still partying as hard as ever.....exams? close one eye.
but here, everything has to be done so detail? the way ppls act, as though they wanna know every single fucking detail! ohhhh gimme a break!damn irritating...*GRUMBLEZZZ*
everything has to be pick up from the basic...suckz! suckz ! suckz!

well, i was told, we were all told UVIC wouldnt be as bad as the bridge....

yea,yea whatever...

new year,new challenges!

UVIC! here i come....

opps! first of all , gotto call anayas to buy his notes,books, even test papers over..hehehe

some footages of 2003.....

to view more...go to
http://photos.yahoo.com/nicole_sulee
ill keep updating from time to time...


come on ,follow on..lets cross the street 

what a sweet couple,guess what r they looking at? 

they r looking at this! awww~~ 

last year......(bla bla bla) & this year....(this n tat)

mmmmm is first day of the year ,let me recall, what ve i done for the past year
here we go!

Jan-enjoying being back home,cny,gathered with friends n family,cut 4 birthday cakes this year....
good month!

Feb- frens left me one by one,festival season is over,me being depressed,end of the month, recieved news from canadian immigration. got my PR,took a trip to sg to submit my passport...waited almost a week at jaymys
overall, not bad!

March-farewell,pack & pack, shop & shop! landed on 10th of March...flight was terribly long...lepak for the month in our lil new house

April-start looking for jobs, found few...yes! house cleaning,making quite big buck..
heard from Camosun college, i was offered a seat in computer engr bridge instead of elec which was wat i wanted,given hope that i wouldnt ve pro being transfered when i get to uvic..took the offer
over all, mmmmm,still enjoying

May & June-start applying for canada & BC student loan,still worked my ass off
end of June,the beginning of my bridge program...
found out:there r only 3 girls in the course,shocked!
oh well!

July,August,September-studying my ass off!! i mean literally,stay in school from 8am to 10pm almost every single day,weekends at library from 10 to 6,2-3test average each week,still worked on July and August, quited on Sept,couldnt take it anymore....
depressed again two weeks b4 final exams of the first term...
had a week holiday(not enough)
overall,did fairly well on study,financially dropping though..
terrible months

Oct- even heavier work loads,mom visisted early of oct,severely depressed coz of the stress during mom s visit, got her so worried,plus when she was here, i was falling so much behind.loads to catch up...thankgod,she brought me to this chinese herbalist...been taking herbs,managed to go through...bad news!we wont be able to switch to elec, there were 5 of us!
terrible terrible month!

Nov-mom left..carried on myself...been working really hard to catch up...thanks to wei n paul,helped me big time!!!
been picking up this month

Dec- a week b4 final,was doing really well, thanks to the herbalist,been drinking the herbs. struggled through final...result was out, did even better than last term! holiday was here, melvin was here, had a good time, had good xmas...
boxing day, bad news! Tsunami wave...:~(
overall, good n bad....

Overall-learnt how to prevent from being depress or rather handle it, learnt when to say no, learnt time management,learnt JAVA language (tats a good one!*wink~*),
strike all As & got really strong in maths,calculus,diff equations,linear alg,stats,discrete...bring it on!
it was the tougest year in my whole life so far....
overall,more challenges to come!

This year targets-going to UVIC(got it!), meeting new friends...do better acedemically,find several jobs...(broke after boxing week hehe),will be able to find a good co-op job for work term ,mech295 works out fine bet uvic n camosun,make mom n family happy.....cook & clean more !
overall,stop being a lazy ass!!!hehehe

thats it, oh well! we'll see!

it was snowing on new year's eve....how romantic...awwww~~~~

梦想VS财富

朋友们都向我告穷！
当然啦！boxing week 死买死买！不穷就假！
有些更过分！边告边买。。。真服了他们
试试把双手放进口袋里，全是硬币
呛呛呛的，多好听啊！
下个月怎样挨过呢？

有些在伦敦，欧洲国家。。。
PRADA, GUCCI, LV, DIOR。。。40-50英镑，怎样抗拒呢？！
在starbucks挨更抵夜 ，一个小时才4，5块英镑 。。。
惨啦！下个月吃粥啦。。。

想起去年表姐找我做直销。。。
好赚吗？当然！举手赞成！
她告诉我：到朋友的家，她朋友有个柜橱特地设计来装唇膏。。。
还记得她的表情：“好羡慕噢！”
看见他们俩小口儿，拼命的做，早出晚归。
好值得我尊重！
可是我们要的都不同，我要的是平衡。。。
富有与贫穷，快乐及忧伤，是在不同的秤上,diff scale
往往不能相提并论，没办法相比啊。。。
是的是的，我这样说是因为我穷，我任命！呵呵。。。

我问自己：这几年来有努力过吗？
我自问有。
不为富贵荣华，而为梦想奋斗！(哈哈，歹势歹势)
那种一步一步迈向梦想的满足感，难以形容。。。赞！
不同的味道，不同的享受。。。。(试试看吧)
很多人都不晓得自己的梦想是什么。。
(我指的梦想不是中马标，不是发达)
觉得自己很幸运，因为清楚自己要些什么。
很努力的迈向想去的方向。。(可能你会说我天真吧！)
所以我一直说：我爱上了我的未来！
(哈哈，好变态，好恶心噢！！)

so。。。朋友们，开始寻找吧！
最好的财富是梦想，而不是户口或衣橱。
当然，也不能为了梦想而饿了肚子，尤其自己的至爱。。。