flower n garden show - day 3 aka crappy day

Im not in the best of mood right now...im exchausted...came home, checked msges , Tana left a msg, I was supposed to show up this morning, Constantly i been reminding myself tat ill be working on sat,(as i ve been really forgetful lately...) infact, i work every saturday morning this summer, how could i forget bout that right??? but this time, i did, maybe is the flower n garden show, maybe i been caught up with this busy busy schedule....I just didnt show up,

I totally broke down crying when i heard the msg, is like, how can i forget!?!? wats been going on with my mind?!?!?! am i messed up or wat??

when i called Tana , she was this cold cold lady , tell me they dont need me for now. WHAT THE FUCK!? I ve been doing a good job, is just this time and they want me out, I apologised n apologised for being so forgetful..well as the matter of fact, I was going to quit b4 fall as I ll be taking more courses n cant work tat much at all.

they re not my favourite person, calculative about tat 10mins tat i came late, n wat bout those extra "10mins"S tat I ve been staying?? Cant use their microwave coz they havent even had breakfast!???!?!? WHAT THE HECK!?!? Im relief in a way that Im out of this but it just that i could ve worked one more month...ARGG fuck tat!! Im done with these idiots.

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We were expected to be busier today at the F&G show, but it was just ok, sold alot of those fan crossed hat though...and found out that there were other ppl started selling hats today, n they sell it infront of the entrance...saw tonnes of ppls wearing theirs... damn competitive loh...

I hate competition, but guess tats the way the world is, really...im sick of comparing, go away! i duwanna compare with u, im just doing my own shit. my house, my garden, my lunch, my projects, my grades...I deserved what I did n so do u. so stop it!

On n all, my jaw was actually tired n hurting for smiling....coz there were too many happy old ppls there, u gotto be happy too being around them and we were until later of the day..

Once again, i crashed, but is ok to break down, so tat i let things out n tomorrow will be better...darling supposed to take over the store but he didnt, he was just there for me....thank you so much..