The evilness in everybody

I ve came across MANY selfish ppls, as though like, it hurts them too much to share with others, although there was nothing to lose.

i really feel like breaking up this ppls brain n see whats on their mind, stop keeping things to urself! i do believe this thing call karma.

urg! anyway....

few days ago we came across this lost pinchers in the dog park, i ve been having this thought of kidnapping other's dog, but then again when i tot about the feeling if somebody else kidnapped pooky, it was just way too hard.
but just the thought of get to keep the lost dog for one day, unfortunately when we were about to leash her up, her owner showed up. darn!

now, see that was an example of selfish thought, we just simply ignore other's feeling, well i know every human being has at least a tiny bit of that evilness in them, i mean come on, who's perfect? to be honest, i have ALOT of evil thoughts in me, esp when im sooo angry at someone, i could imagine all sort of bad things i could do that one person n that kinda satisfied me, sometime when i share this kinda evil ideas with darling, and he always claim me as a horrible horrible person who will burn in hell! but come on! dont i hv the right to at least imagine?

for ex, remember i used to work in this b&b and was treated badly? there was once i bumped into the couple who owns it on the street, i was too excited to see someone i know, i was like :" oh i know them!" without thinking who are they. so i just gave them a very friendly kute mute wave, but they responded coldly. ever since then! even until now!! i feel like sneaking to their yard in the middle of the nite n pour those greasy paint on their nice red sport car, grrrrrr!!!!

but then of coz, none of those thoughts were executed.

how nice if we could just do whatever the fuck we want without have to be responsible to most importantly - our ownself. In that way nobody has to ever hold their grudge behind. I mean seriously to think bout those ppls who hurted me b4, sometime the heartache is still there. maybe after all im not so carefree eh?