I dont think before I blog

I had recently read an entry posted by Kenny Mah - Do you think before you blog?

and then im a daily reader of Zewt...comparing the useless garbage i wrote here, is really making me feel bad.



Do I think before I blog? the answer is NO.



I am no writter and know nothing about literatures, kinda make me feel dumb , maybe i should really dye my hair blonde.... I dont have much thoughts - it should really worries me if I do, coz thats usually the time of the deep cave (thats what i call it) - if you know what im talking about.



I guess Im just very basic human being, thanks to the medication, im enjoying life alot - finishing school, got a new job which im very excited about. The best part of it is - finally i could bring home some money, when i said home i mean my Mom, i could contribute in her mortgage - coz i was really ashamed of myself the last time i went back, she paid for my air ticket n everything, and it made me feel like such a big failure.



I once had this conversation with her when I found out that my 19 years old cousins are bring home money.



"I feel really sat pai, 26 yrs old and im still in school , contribute nothing to home"

mom replied, " Its not you, I am the one sat pai" which directly stabbed my heart



So I called her up yesterday to get her bank information saying that I will TT her money next month onwards - and she said " no, for now just try to save for ur wedding and I dont need any money now", of coz im gonna send regardless, coz i been waiting for this moment all these years!



Since young my motivation to work hard is to be able to give my mom a good life in the future, and i feel bad enough that i have to be so far away from her. Maybe one day she will change her mind about moving here... Hopefully.

sighh..i miss home, i miss you guys

Mean while, lets look at Daniel the new pussy cat doll!!! hahahahah

do you remember playing super mario on ur nintendo? check this one out, he's awesome!